things have been.. well..

hey guys!

so i havent wrote here for awhile. Everything is as crazy as ever.
Ive been throwing up a couple times a day and think i probly gained some un wanted wiehgt last night as dinner, bc I couldnt throw up after it :/ Im starting group on sunday and im really excited about that! as badly as i want to be skinny, I want to do it the healthy way. I find i am jus tloney and look at food as my friend, whom I also hate. :P sometimes i feel as if i am going crazy here, with my dad doing chemo, me in a new school and trying to "fit in" trying to loose wieght and find myself all at the same time is tough. Man whoever said its hard being a teenager, got that one right!