boysboysboyss..

So I thought I would fill you guys in with my boy drama since food isnt the only thing on my mind..

So about 3 months ago, me and my long time boyfriend broke up, can you spell D-U-C-H-E B-A-G.

He was the all master cheater, he would manipulate me and make me feel as if i did something wrong when I would question him for the littlest things. I should of seen it coming, well since I actually cheated with him on his ex gf. I felt horrible for it for along time, but shit does happen and Carma is a bitch.

He was just there for me and with me threw the hardest times in my life, he was my first love but I let him get away with way to much, I always looked the other way, and thats not a way to treat a relationship. But with him I felt like it was different, I felt so in love.. but like i once herd, love is blind.

We broke up because he was going to be going to the army but then that night his ex girlfriend emials me asking if me and him were over, I said yes but we were still physical and still wanted to be with each other, we just figured it would be really hard with him leaving, so that we would end things now, wich was nothing but the truth..

she then goes on to tell me he has been telling her he loves her and not me for the past 2 months. He took my virginity while he was in a relationship with her but I did not know.. bc me and him were on a break.

After this I told him I wanted him out of my life for good.
he cried and begged for me to be his friend bc that other girl did not want him anymore.
I stupidly agreed.
&we became physical again..
He would sneak over ( like we always use to do) at 3am and would talk for hours in my brothers room without my mom knowing and make love.

He would tell me he loves this other girl, but i did not hear it, i didnt want too, I loved him so much.

Soon later he calls me and tells me the girl wants him back. I couldnt belive it. He asked me to keep everything we just did to myself. I couldnt, I didnt want to, I loved him, how could he love someone else.. it was beyond me.. I was truly heart broken, I dont think Ive ever cried so hard in my life.

After I told her he told me to go die and we havent really talked since. I might still love him but he wants nothing to do with me and thats one of the hardest things I had to face..

All of a suden then I met my 2nd bf. He was great, a breathe of fresh air. Sweet, dorky, genuin.. or it seemed. He just got out of a relashinship with his gf of a year and would tell me how much he was over her to the point were it was like okay.. so your telling me you are but your SO not! lol. It sucked. After a month of dating we ended things mutually and there is no really hard feelings.

now I am single and have been getting less attention from the boys actually..
well see though I think it might be good for me to be single for just a bit, and when I say a bit.. I mean.. a very teeny bit lol, i hate being alone, but well see how it goes..