im back :)

I have not been bloging at all lately but as my bulimia is getting worse, I thought I could meet some people this way. I have gained 5 pounds in a week. This is not working. I strive to be skinny, but with the thought that I can eat anything than throw it up is still in me, I do this about 5 times a day, multiple times. Sometimes I get so sick of it and give up. I need to stop before I gain to much wieght. I am at about 120 and 5'3 now. I look back at my pictures when I was anorexic and think who is that girl? so beautiful and confident. I was 90 pounds and happy.